I Feel Like Little Kid.....

Who doesn't want to go to bed.  I know the sooner I fall asleep, I'll be one day closer to Monday.  Ugh.  I did manage to get a fair share of housework done today and I also made both the chocolate cake and buttercream icing from scratch!   I'm a little nervous about the icing because it isn't setting up the way I thought it would.   Oh well, I'll just add more powdered sugar to it.

I'm pretty shocked no one else on my husbands side of the family stepped up to throw my father in law a party.  I'm thinking they are going to wait until my mother in law turns eighty a few months from now. Who the hell knows either way I'm sure it will be a ton more things for me to take care off.  Well, I think I have fallen asleep at least twice since I started this update.  

End Rant.

Dear Big Boy,

Really? You really had to get up before 6am on both days this weekend? And why I ask? You have been around long enough to know I'm not exactly a barrel of sunshine first thing in the morning let alone on Sunday morning. Please child, and I am begging here, learn what it means to enjoy sleep. I swear on all that is holy we are not outside playing with your bubbles or having the circus come through for our own private party after you go to sleep. Honestly kid, it's quite boring around here after you go to bed, just the way I like it.

Just because the sun is creeping up does not mean you have to pop out of bed and instantly run around like you just finished a pot of coffee. Why oh why could you have not inherited my love of sleep. We all know how the rest of the day will play out. Around 3pm I'm going to crash from exhaustion with no relief in sight. Since you stopped napping over two years ago, that isn't an option and I know I won't be offered to go hide in the bedroom or out on the hammock for an hour to close my eyes for a few minutes.

Basically, I'm begging you to please pick at least one day over the weekend to sleep past 8am. I don't think I'm asking much and 8am is still pretty early kid but I'll take what I can get. Please just give it some thought.

Your completely sleep deprived Mother.

They're Back....

Hot flashes. I don't understand. I was doing so well on the Premarin. Now it seems the night sweats have returned full force and I'm back to waking up three and four times. Maybe I missed a dose of the Premarin and don't remember. Hopefully it's nothing. I never realized how well I was sleeping until this started up again. I was actually hoping that maybe my doctor could lower the dosage over the next few months. Guess not. Damn.

Thank You Big Boy

For waking up at 11pm last night and refusing to go back to sleep until almost 3am. You should be quite the charmer at school today and my patience should run out at work by about noon. In addition to being miserably tired, since I had to sleep on the sofa with you, my back feels like it's on fire. It's not like I can even take the day off to come home and sleep. All of my time off is saved for snow days and your ailments. So thanks BB, for what I am sure will be a wonderful day. I would pay anything to be able to drop him off at school, come home and curl up for the best nap ever.

When Will He Understand?

Sleep is important. Big Boy has never been a good sleeper. Ever. I think I can count on one hand how many times he has slept through the night and he will be three in a few weeks. I remember holding him as an infant thinking, "alright, I just need to make a few more weeks, everyone says they start sleeping through the night at six weeks." Well, six weeks came and went, then twelve, then six months and well, you get the idea.

I just don't understand what I did wrong. We tried everything. I have read every book about infant and toddler sleep and nothing has helped. I'm just so exhausted. I hear people talk about how their kid slept through the night right away and they would lay the baby down at 8pm and wouldn't hear a peep until 7am. HOW?!

One day, I pray, he will start sleeping better. I worry about what will happen when he starts school next month. He will not be able to handle school on no sleep. Once again, I really wish he had come with an owner's manual.

Not Again!

How on earth did I get bronchitis again. I knew I was getting sick. Big boy just got over a bug, hubby has been under the weather and know its my turn. Just one problem...who takes care of mom when she is sick?

I just want to crawl in bed with a hot cup of tea and a good movie. Is that to much to ask?

So Sleepy

Big Boy is sick. He will be three in October and this is the first time he has ever ran a really high fever. Naturally, I hit the panic button. He must be feeling awful. I called out of work tomorrow because the fact that he had a 104 degree fever earlier really scared me.

I am so tired that I am actually over tired and wired. I am scared if I fall asleep, his temperature will shoot up again. I know, I need to get some sleep. I'm going.

Help!

Big boy woke up at 1:30am and did not fall back asleep until about twenty minutes ago. There was nothing wrong with him! He just didn't want to sleep. I got maybe, two hours sleep last night and I have to go to work in two hours. I can't even lay down for a few minutes because I get up for work now anyway. What the hell am I going to do today. I have not been this tired since he was a newborn. My eyes are actually crossing. I am never going to make it through work today. Ugh! Hubby is putting in some OT tonight and now I have to pick big boy up after work. Sleep...I need it.
I know I'm being a brat about this but I just got over a bout with insomnia and I am seriously in need of sleep.