Lovely

I've been bellyaching the past few days about having a family party to go to today.  It's only for a few hours and really shouldn't be bad EXCEPT....guess who decided to get up at 5:30?  Lovely.  I just don't understand why he feels the need to do this?  I live for the weekend.  If I could just sleep in for one morning I think my body would feel completely rejuvenated.  I guess this gives me more time to get things in order for a small party we are throwing for my father in law tomorrow.  Yup.  I think I forgot to mention that.

Big Boy just gave me a huge hug and he feels warm and the Hubby just called (he works OT on Saturday morning) to say he feels like he's coming down with something.   Normally,  I would think I had a house full of fakers on my hands but since everyone received their flu shot this week, I kinda expected a few minor "fluish" symptoms to kick it ut no one will ever believe this is all a coincidence.

I do have to laugh.  One of the benefits of being up this early is maybe we can get some of our errands out of the way bright and early...it's pouring out.   Hopefully it's just a quick thunderstorm and we'll be able to get moving in a bit.  Unfortunately, I do have to wait for the sun to come up.......   

Light A Candle, Say A Prayer

It's been two years. Two years ago today, my oldest brother lost his battle to a cancer that he had been fighting for ten years. I wasn't sure how I would feel today. I think more than anything I feel overwhelmed. I look at Big Boy and I'm sad he will never get to know his Uncle Kenny. I think of my mother and only now, after being a mother myself, can I imagine how she feels yet, I pray I never know exactly how she feels. I have four other brothers who I'm sure, are all dealing with this in their own private way, trying to be strong for their own children. I want to call my sister in law and my niece but I'm sure they want to be left alone. I know they are still trying to pick up the pieces. Even two years later.

I have a difficult time expressing my feelings so when I came across a website which allows you to light a candle for someone you may have lost in your life or simply for someone you love who may be in the need of a prayer, I began doing just that. Unfortunately, I don't get to church nearly as often as I should and this allows me to light a candle and pray for someone in my won way, as weird as it may be. If you would like to light a candle for Kenny, you can search the group under the initials KH.

Thymic Cancer is such a rare cancer, many people have never even heard of it. I doctor friend of mine even told me my brother was the only case he had ever heard of in his thirty plus years of practicing medicine. This is a great site if you would like to learn more or make a donation to Thymic Cancer Research.

We all love and miss you very much Kenny.

I love the Rain

It is supposed to rain for the next three days. I guess it is weird that I am excited. I feel justified staying in my pajamas all day and doing nothing. Unfortunatly, I have to work tonight, tomorrow morning and go to a wedding Saturday. Bummer. The day seems so much less chaotic when it rains. Big boy understands that we stay home and play instead of running around to parks all day. I don't feel guilty for not going anywhere either.
I wish I could just crawl up in bed for the next few days and not face the world. I have a feeling things are going to get rough.